Well, folks, life is full of surprises. That is the one thing that never seems to change.
I’m writing this post to let you know that there are some things going on in my personal life that I need to focus on. Because of this, I will be backing away from online activity. Timeline: indefinite. (In other words, I don’t know.) I resigned from my admin role in the Dissociative Initiative on Facebook. I’m taking down my media page and my trauma recovery online course. Those things did not take off like I had hoped, which now that current events are unfolding, is probably in actuality a blessing in disguise.
Recovery-wise, I believe I’m nearly there. I definitely have parts, and I always will. But mine are all “out,” all together, most of the time now. I don’t lose much time anymore. There are some loose ends to clean up; I will probably still continue seeing my T for an indefinite amount of time, until we all feel it becoming less necessary. Trust me, I’m not in a rush to call myself recovered – but ironically it’s one of those mysteries that I need privacy right now rather than when I’m in the thick of things. If I could elaborate on why, I would, but I can’t.
Circumstances notwithstanding, I’ve been a semi-public figure (in the very mildest sense of the word) for almost 3 years now and I’ve shared a lot throughout my recovery – highs, lows, thoughts, research, observations. Some of it has been hard to share, some of it hasn’t. It seems strange now that I’m near the end of my process – where I don’t have the “disordered” part of Dissociative Identity Disorder anymore – I would need space and privacy. But I do. I need to figure out what my new “normal” is, and there are some other private things going on that don’t need to be on the internet that need my attention as well.
I am going to leave this blog up, because you can search the archives for useful stuff. I’m not here to say I’m quitting writing – I don’t think I can ever do that – but just that the things I’m focusing on right now are not going to be the topics of new blog posts. Branding and marketing themselves can become distractions from doing necessary internal work.
There’s a time to build, and there’s a time to burn. Knowing when to do what is a bitch. But I started this blog without any particular aspirations, so everything that came after that has really just been a blessing I never could have imagined. For that, I am grateful.
You can still email me if you need me. And I’m not done with the Dear Little Ones series. So I’ll be around. Just not in the same capacity that you may have gotten used to. Maybe one day I’ll share what’s going on now, but it will have to be way after the fact. Right now, I just need to go be a normal person for awhile and see what that’s like. I hope this makes sense. Love to you all. Cheers. ~J8