Fall Has Fell
Just a quick “FYI” to everyone that in America, fall is here. Fall and October can be a very very hard time for RA survivors and I am unfortunately not much of an exception to this. I AM doing quite a bit better than usual so far this year, which is a testimony to the healing and recovery that has taken place in my life. But I can still feel the chatter, the anxiety, and the confusion starting to gather at the edges. So I will do what I can in terms of blogging but I won’t do what I can’t. (Funny how that works.)
In case people missed the news, I started working on a novel a week or two ago and I’m about 25,000 words into it at this point. I’m actually (tentatively) excited about it. It’s shaping up to be sort of a DID/RA version of The Shack, if anyone has heard of, or remembers, that book. But I’m not making it overtly religious. Draw your own parallels but The Shack directly stated its religious stuff. I’m going to let people interpret my book the way they want to interpret it. –If I finish. And, if I publish. Nothing is a guarantee. I’ll have to see how it goes. Sometimes it’s nice to write just for the pleasure of writing.
Also, I don’t have a ton of things to share that help me get through the fall and holiday season. October is usually harder for me than holidays, although they can sometimes be hard in their own ways. But I do have one big tip to share (other than, whatever the hell works…). Something I started doing several years ago when I was having a horrible time trying to make it through October, was to plan something fun in November. It had to be November because if it was too far away, it ceased to matter if I made it through October.
And it has to be something worthwhile to me. The first year it was my first tattoo. I have bribed myself to do several hard things with tattoos since then so it’s not a novelty anymore, but pick something you’d really like or enjoy or want. That has been my best trick to make it through something really hard, like October.
I’m thinking of you all, and I’m “with” you.